i ran today.
a certain distance i tot i couldnt make it. but i did it. 4.8km run within an hr. i sprinted all the way. i din care bout anything.

i was listening to my mp3 and i was in the world of my own. i din planned to run. but after wad happened.im determined to do sth bout myself but i din knw whr to start. i ran from my hse to bukit gombak. it was dark but i din care.

i knew i needed to clear my mind of certain things.and one thing fer sure.ive made up my mind to clear the excess oil in me. starting frm today i will force myself to run certain distance.my target to reduce the excess oil by 10kg.i dunno hw long it will take but im determined.

as im running, my right knee is always giving way. i fell thrice on the track. it hurts.but not as much as wad happen.
i dunno if he will read dis post. i hope u r happy with my decision.maybe ur determination to leave has changed my mindset. but wadever happens, i hope u will nv blame urself.

all along, ive been hopeless in r/s. its almost a yr with you. ive nv felt more happi being with you.no doubt u having tantrums on and off. maybe ive nt learnt anything. but i always feel safe being with you. u were determined to leave.i wont blame u.every human beings make mistake.but me as a human being is useless.why? i always make the same mistakes over and over again. and always, u forgiven me. and i tot u wouldnt come to a conclusion to leave. and today, i knew u couldnt take my nonsense anymore. i wont say im sorry.cos i knw u nv like it. but i'll stil cry no doubt u hate me crying..maybe like wad u've said, human beings are jus selfish. and i knw i couldnt make u by my side for long.i couldnt secure u. i've failed my duty as a gf and a daughter.

i dunno hw long i could take dis, i'll nt do anything silly cause i know u wouldn like it. i will try to remain silent.

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d0n cal me jessie. cal me sleepyhead
23 years old
sold me lyfe to wrk
smoker
has tattoed 'jessie' on right wrist
has a 'geko' at right ankle

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lose another 8kg=)
passed a car license
passed a motor license
have more clothes
have more $$$
go overseas
get a gilera runner


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