im in a tragic lost. so many things hppening at a time. first was him making up his mind to go.i cried till my eyes were red he nv reacted. hes mind is fixed.how i wish i could turn back time. however, all is gone. he's left.he had moved on while i had nt.
he gave me the love and care was nobody could gif. but i took him fer advantage. he left me with a great impact compared to the previous. 9mths of love caused me so much agony.but not a 2yrs love. i tot he belonged to me.i tot he will remain by my side.but i was wrong.awfully wrong. dis is the 2nd day he left. and i stil cried. nontheless, he left me hes towel.i appreciated it. physically he cant be w me. but he's towel will be hes representative.guys let go of relationship easily.but why nt gals? why issit so hard to let go?

secondly, aft being referred to sgh on the sat morning. i had a whole body checkup done.unwillingly.results are out earli dis morning as i received a call. nt a shock but jus no reaction. ive been taking my life so many times.and alas, the taking away of my life is jus so numbed.a suspect of 1st stage leukemia. symptoms: family heredity and my nose bleeds like a water tap tat doesnt stop. my back is frequent aching and i feel nauseous every morning.or wen i walk under the sun i will haf double visions.

i don care whether its the suspect or the truth. dis will nv go to the family members.n i will nt go fer reviews. i will nt enjoy life to the fullest but jus live day by day.
i wished fer the truth of the outcome.

i haf nth else.
no one to talk to.
he was my companion.
he was my love.
he was mine.
but. he left me to be on my own.
n now hes gone.

the worse has come.wadever may come. i dun wish to knw.its nt me anymore.

d0n cal me jessie. cal me sleepyhead
23 years old
sold me lyfe to wrk
smoker
has tattoed 'jessie' on right wrist
has a 'geko' at right ankle

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lose another 8kg=)
passed a car license
passed a motor license
have more clothes
have more $$$
go overseas
get a gilera runner


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