Monday, February 28, 2011
ahhh~!! cant wait to have my looong getaway with <3! gonna spend our 5days 4nites at HONGKONG~!! <3 sponsored e trip and said its part of our hantaran..aww...sweets!
in return, im so gonna get a set of ralph lauren shirt and ax shades and and and..a cortina watch for <3..<3 got us a pair of couple cortina watches jus last week to celebrate our 1st ..well..its for you guys to find out and for me to knw.. =P
<3 been spending a great deal of tym modifying my 2 wheels..he bought a new pipe (legal) and a cute little box with my fav cartoon character decal on the whole body. whole spore cannot find one. hahaha. hes rc8 bike is too pricey and i cant afford to get him anything except for a brand new set of tyres? hhaha. he said it's the thought that counts.. ;)
have been trying to pray 5tymes a day and i managed to wake up for fajar prayers ;) insya'allah i can be converted by march end.. winks..<3 forbaded me to wrk as a rider...been wrking for 1 wk and managed to get away with a few minor scratches..after the horrid accident, i tend to have phobias on da road~ hope it will go away and i can upgrade to 2a in december ;) pizza hut is fun, except that i hate the closing part. the outlet manager likes me and always gimme full shift knowing im a ex-manager at macs..hahha..dun gif a heck..=P
<3 gave me a practical test on the roads, out of 5 roads, i could onli get 2 roads correct =( <3 told me to take it easy and not to rush while on the road. he also have been naggin at me for the way i ride..always wanting to selit on the road and giving a slight corner he also nag. hahaha..so kawaii..
he also lead me to the roads of JOHOR BAHRU.. and inside, i tried riding he's rc8 while doing my 2 wheels there..one action he did realli touched my heart. as i was riding at 40/km i couldn control the rc8 and was alr wobbling down the stretch of lorong bapok.. <3 caught sight of me and carried me out of the bike and the bike has some major damages on the mirror and on the ferring.. he din scold me but said "ur life is more impt den the bike. bike can be repaired but not the scars.." as my scars frm previous round was so horrifying..luckily enuff, my face is sparred.. =P
was warded last week due to intestine virus and <3 came almost everyday after nightfall and accompany me till 12am and he heads home. mum, is pleased which is very surprising =DD
well, thats all for now ((: nights!!
21:21
7 nov he left
Saturday, February 12, 2011
ive regretted the actions ytd that i did out of anger. but what's done is done..now more money is needed for the new clothes for the two wheels, as it's damaged for the self-skid ytd. how it would be if i could jus fly and ram against the barriers, and everything, every sorrows every hurt will be gone. and me gone too. but all i got was a damaged 2 wheels. an open wound leading frm my right shoulder to my arm...and to make things worse, im a right hand user. and hip bone is badly scarred too. doc gave me 3 weeks of mc. but im nt usin it for i jus came back frm cny leave.
have to act im normal wen im home and to wear long sleeves for the next few weeks of recovery period. cant afford to let the tigress knw, if she knows, im dead meat. anyway, to the person reading. i may be alive and not dead. but whether u want to sue me to court. its up to ur decisions. all im asking is where is the responsibilty of taking care of the things ive loan/given to u. at least tel me the reason be4 makin me to ask u. i admitted i lost your gold pendant if u stil rmb. well..i realli have nth to say. just sorry. really am.
all the best to you. and hopefully there is a change in ur decision into changin ur seat. i really hope that u will change it...thanks.
14:38
7 nov he left
Friday, February 11, 2011
1o.o2.11 is the demolision of the pillars of support. up till this very point..im holding every chance. i told myself to giv u another chance. by end of this mth if u cant make up ur mind, i will then..let go of u.
ppl always say when love comes knocking thru the door, accept what is given. but, please rmb..when she said that to u, u stil have feelings for me. and at the same time u accepted her. it is already treating her as spare tyre. that is my point of view as a lady. and to you, i dunno what were u thinking. she has the qualities i dun have and i haf the qualities she doesnt have. u said by breaking up with her to get back with me is unfair to her. isnt being with her and still having feelings for me also being unfair to her? this is also my another point of view. take the screenshot of the blog, i never do or say anything wrong and therefore i haf nth to be afraid. bring it to the police for the previous post. its ok~ this is my blog, i can rant anything i like. even if i were to be summoned by the police. the police doesnt even have the right to handcuff me. this is personal diary. a diary meant for bloggers to rant. if u say it's slandering, the whole world doesnt have only 1 of ur name. why do u tink it shld be u?
anyway, dis is out of the topic. but jus to let u knw, even if u wan to bring me to the police. you will get nth in the end. i haf nth for u. i dun wish to offend u. but if u feel offended u have to right to click the "X" on the top right corner.
i may have done sth to upset u. we both have done sth to upset each other. isnt it time to forget that issue and return back to normal? this decision lies in u..for now....
16:13
7 nov he left
Thursday, February 10, 2011
worse ordeal..
22:32
7 nov he left
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
at first, i wanted to end it as frens. and now, i cant put my anger into words. the words and actions he does, is both different things! first he sweet talked thru sms-es. every day when i am reminded of him, i will browse thru he's cute sms-es. and i calm myself down told myself to forgive him and gif another chance to us.
and when i finally made my decision to let us have a future. he bloody hell got attached to a YOUNG MALAY GAL. let me clearly state. i am not being a racist here. but here i am being so angry that he COULD NOT WAIT! he claims he wont be getting another gf if our r/s dun turn out good. and there he is FUCKING around with another woman. FUCK THAT SHIT!
let me tell you MR WANDI JUMA'AT, you are such a SEX ADDICT and A LIAR! i am not pointing fingers. i admitted i lied to you before. but ever since then, i NEVER LIE nor i wont do any UNFAITHFUL business even without you in my life. cus i always tot we could have another chance. and i STRONGLY belief, u are fooling around this few mths without me. PROVE TO ME IF I AM WRONG. if u did not fool around, how else can you get a gal THAT FAST! lets see how long you can last with that gal with that stupid temper that only ME and CHERRY and take it.
i know that gal. but rest assured i wont put that innocent gal into our ROTTEN picture. she has nothing to do with it. but if she wan to masuk campur. i dun mind giving her a piece of my mind!!
无可药救的死臭男人！！我恨死你！！
05:46
7 nov he left
Monday, January 10, 2011
remorse?
eversince the split, ive been gorging to food like nobody's business. dun understand wadz wrong but maybe its the ego that every mankind has. i haf every weakness that every women has. im very weak in the mind and the heart.
dis heartbreaking season has yet to move on. i tot it had, but im wrong. its haunting me like there's no tomorrow. keep waking up in the middle of the night thinking he's just right beside me. but he isn't. so much as i want to be back together, but at the same time, im afraid of bad things will happen. so many things have happen yet i have no one to share with. both the good and the bad. so much for wanting to get back, but i pretend to have a heart of stone. as hard as concrete.but inside me, i want to get back so much.
guess im afraid the history might happen. no doubt no violence has been used upon me. but the words are enuff to hurt me so much.
i dunno what i wan from here. i realli dunno. my mind is nt right state to make any decision. *SIGH*
08:27
7 nov he left
Sunday, October 10, 2010
nth and no one is doing anything to solve the dispute btwn us..
im jus left hanging like always.
i knw u will be reading dis.
wadever the outcome is, i knw u are handling it well.. take care
11:00
7 nov he left